Raised up in the church, I was taught that it is an evil thing to wish someone ill -- even your enemies. All this life lesson really did was teach me to be dishonest about my true feelings. My mother was and still is a person who only reads the easy, peaceful sections of the bible so she doesn't have to do anything to stop anybody who is treating her or her own children badly.
It wasn't until I was older and read the bible all the way through --unlike my mother at the time-- that I understood that David, "a man after God's own heart" was always honest and gave full vent to his feelings -- even the negative ones.
O that Thou wouldst slay the wicked, O God; depart from me, therefore, men of bloodshed. For they speak against Thee wickedly, and Thine enemies take Thy name in vain. Do I not hate those who hate Thee, O Lord? And do I not loathe those who rise up against Thee? I hate them with the utmost hatred; they have become my enemies (Ps. 139:19-22).
Not everything the "good characters" in the bible do is good.
Abraham told lies to help God's prophecy come true and nearly wound up having his wife raped. Joseph bragged about being a King one day over his brothers and in jealousy they threw him under the bus. And King David prayed for some truly, unspeakably horrible things to be done to his enemies. However, praying and wishing don't make a thing so -- thankfully.
But I've been thinking, for a long time now, that it was David's complete honesty about his feelings (even the ugliest ones) combined with his certainty that God would make things right if he laid problems at God's feet that made David "a man after God's own heart" -- even though David would eventually become a murderer to take another man's wife.
Even so, when I heard reports that Justice Anton Scalia had died, I immediately squashed the surge of joy that flowed through me. This squashing lasted all of 30 minutes. It just couldn't last in the face of friends whooping it up on the phone and others telling me they were literally dancing upon hearing of this powerful misogynistic, homophobic, racist's death.
Justice Antonin “Nino” Scalia was racist, charismatic, misogynist, intelligent, homoantagonistic, witty, a good friend and a judicial terrorist.
He was all these things, multifaceted in the ways that all human beings are, and he should be remembered as such. Still, in the days since his death, the communities he attacked viciously with his decisions over the course of his 30 years on the Supreme Court have been taken to task for dancing on his grave.
READ MORE: https://www.theroot.com/call-a-thing-a-thing-scalia-s-judicial-terrorism-shoul-1790854235#!
My childhood training fell away as I listened to my friends and my true feelings came out. I celebrated too. And it felt good. It was cathartic and honest and I have no regrets.
While I still don't think it is a good thing to wish or pray someone dead, I fully plan on celebrating if George Zimmerman, Darren Wilson, or Dante Servin die in a hail of gun fire, especially if that gunfire winds up coming from black police officers for being sassy and talking back or not moving quick enough when told.
And I'll be doing more than a little tap dance if some abused black girl grows into a woman and finally takes out a favorite black male pedophile singer too.
The only reason I was anywhere near indifferent to the death of 20 year old XXXTentacion is because I barely knew who he was before he was killed.
The first time I heard his name was when a music service, Spotify, was claimed they would be dropping him from their service due to his violence against women. Spotify didn't as a successful push-back against the #MeToo movement let Spotify know that there was more money to be lost than gained by getting rid of artists like XXXTentacion and R. Kelly.
But I know who XXXTentacion is now. Do you?
Pitchfork has obtained a 142-page transcript of testimony by XXXTentacion’s reported victim, delivered over two and a half hours in January at a public defender’s office in Miami. (XXXTentacion’s lawyer, his manager, and spokespeople for his label, Empire, have not responded to requests for comment.)
In the deposition, the woman said she suffered a grim pattern of routine abuse and offered harrowing details about what she said happened in the final days before the charges....
The first incident of domestic violence occurred about two weeks (after she moved in with him). He slapped her and broke her iPhone 6S, because she had complimented a male friend on his new jewelry. (XXXTentacion later repaired the phone.)
Later that day, XXXTentacion left the room and returned with two grilling implements—a “barbecue pitchfork” and a “barbecue cleaner,” she said—and told her to pick between them, because he was going to put one of them in her vagina...He was lightly dragging the tool against her inner thigh when she passed out. He did not penetrate her with it...
...he was asking me why I was singing his friend’s part of the song, if I like him, why do I like him, like do I ever look at his Twitter,” she said. Then, XXXTentacion head-butted her, punched her, stomped on her, and put her in the bathtub, where he continued hitting and kicking her. “He also wanted to cut out my tongue because I was singing the song..." [She ran. He beat her and stomped her. He would eventually be charged with a violent robbery, go to jail, get out and continue the abuse.]
In early October 2016, she found out that she was pregnant by XXXTentacion. The pregnancy was planned by both of them...When XXXTentacion returned inside, he told her, “You need to tell me the truth right now or I’ll kill you and this jit.” She said that “jit” was slang for the unborn child. He then started elbowing, head-butting, and punching her. He strangled her until she almost passed out. He took her to the bathroom and demanded one last time that she tell him everything or he would kill her in the bathtub. [She went blind in one eye, temporarily]
READ MORE: https://pitchfork.com/thepitch/xxxtentacions-reported-victim-details-grim-pattern-of-abuse-in-testimony/
Now that I know who XXXTentacion is, I am indifferent no longer. He was a black male slave master to a (black?) female* slave. He's dead. And a bunch of women he might have met in the future have escaped him, never having had the misfortune to meet him.
Some people have defended XXX, saying the woman he beat took some of this testimony back, that she claimed she was lying.
Well, I'm sure she was lying at some point. Domestic violence victims who have been beaten like this often lie in order to minimize the abuse and beating NOT to make it worse than it was. This is likely why I read, in at least one article, that there was at least a proposal to charge him with witness tampering.
Even if the woman he beat turns out to be some magical anomaly and only 50% of her testimony turned out to be true, this man was as dangerous a white man who used to skin kittens for fun as a 5 year old child -- a serial killer in the making.
While XXX might have turned out to be a routine chronic serial abuser of women, I really do wonder how his recent past compares to another serial killer of black women that the black community didn't care about for two decades or more - THE GRIM SLEEPER
TALES OF THE GRIM SLEEPER PART 2: ACCESSORIES BEFORE THE FACT
Some black men (and the Pick-Me-s that will follow them over a cliff) have claimed to be outraged by black female indifference and/or joy over news of this man's death. One of the famous ones claimed to be outraged because he claimed Malcom X would have died the same kind of lowlife if he hadn't lived past 20 years of age.
There are so many things wrong with this statement I can't even go through them all. But understand this before we proceed: Black men love to tell a cleaned-up, fake history of black history --leaving women out -- same as white men do.
First of all, Malcolm did not recover his life from the same kind of depths that XXX did. Secondly, Malcolm X did not recover his own life. Malcolm did not create or save himself. by himself.(The self-made man story is a lie the vast majority of the time when you hear it. And on a side note: Martin Luther King was created and built-up by black women from the ground up.) Malcolm was rescued by other black men who gave him things to think about and read.
And if Jidenna and Kendrick Lamar had done the same, for XXXTentacion, maybe he would be alive right now. Furthermore, if they had cared about XXXTentacion and his potential future female victims while he was still alive the rest of us might recognize their "grief" as little more than a performance piece.
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Just like that Orange Orangutan sitting in the White Supremacist House in Washington D.C., XXXTentacion really shouldn't matter to anyone, one way or the other, without his followers. That is, Chump wouldn't be in the White House without his white supremacist voters. And XXXTentacion's star wouldn't have been on the rise if not for his male supremacist fan base.
His nearly being removed from Spotify enhanced his career in much the same way Apricot Asshole's political career was enhanced by calling Mexicans "rapists."
Not surprising:
Male Supremacists
and
White Supremacists
are cut from the same clothe
Over the last few days, the defense of XXXTentacion and demands that black women see his death as tragic, rather than as a relief, have taken on the same tone as the defense of Bill Cosby, Nate Parker, Chris Brown, Kodak Black, Ray Rice, R. Kelly...
There are demands for forgiveness from black women for abusive black men who have made it clear --with maybe one exception -- that they don't want forgiveness. Toxic Masculinity soaked macho men never ask for forgiveness.
And patriarchy soaked non-feminist black women, as usual, have run out in front of these men to shield them with their own bodies saying "We don't know what happened. We weren't there."
For whatever reason, the message that I've gotten a lot more clearly this time is this:
'Black men are suffering from white supremacy so they should be given understanding when they go through a phase of beating and attempting to kill black women. He's young. It's just a phase. She forgave him. Why can't you? Some black women are generous enough to be beaten half to death and get over it. If not for these ride-or-die black women who are forgiving after being beaten and nearly killed, the black community would collapse.'
Make no mistake, what's being described is NOT FORGIVENESS and THIS IS the message black women are being given with these demands that we see this young man as anything but a variation on the slave master and a potential murder.
So now that this message has been received, I'm actually wondering if tap dancing on someone's grave as catharsis is enough for black women?
If 10% of black males are willing to raise up to protect their own demographic (black males) against the accusations of beaten and bleeding black women while another 80% of these jokers sit silently "not wanting to be judgmental" (same as white men want to be neutral about Anton Scalia, Donald Chump and this Chumpanzees) then what is left for black women but to hope that violent misogynists die young before they can maim or kill more black women?
If black men with money have their way, the XXX's and R. Kelly's will never go to prison -- not for beating a black woman even if she winds up almost dead. So what is left but to hope they cease to exist?
With very few exceptions, black men have made it very clear --mostly through their silence-- that they are not going to protect black women at the expense of any black man, no matter how despicable that black man is. This is a large part of why R Kelly still has a career.
The only thing holding me back from praying for the deaths of men like R. Kelly is the same thing that hold me back from praying for the death of people like Darren Wilson and George Zimmerman. It's an evil thing to do to pray for someones death but I still recognize them all as the enemies of blackness
...because black women are just as black as black men are, quiet as it's kept.
Some black men and their Pick-Me-s have claimed that
Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy (XXXTentacion's real name) was in the process of getting his life together.
That means as much to me as hearing that the white slave master who put these scars on Gordon's back showed up at a charity event for a black school 1867 -- without ever having saying he was "sorry" one time. And when the black men of 2018 value black women as much as they value themselves, they'll feel the same way.
Do not hear me saying, "He got what he deserved." I'm not saying that because I have taken the log out of my own eye. I have done more screwed up sh** than I care to admit. I AM saying I'm not going to cry over something bad happening to my enemy. And I'm not even going to seriously discuss "forgiving" someone I know I would have put in the ground the first time he laid hands on me in viciousness. And there are heroic black women in prison right now who felt the same way -- they killed their abusers and rightfully so.
Estimates range between 40-80% of women convicted of murder acted in self-defense against their abusers. Male aggression is evident in almost all homicides, even when women are the ultimate offenders. Unlike men, most women who kill do not have criminal histories. Women serving time for Murder I or II or Voluntary Manslaughter comprise about 10-15% of women in prison.
One-third of murdered women are killed by male partners; only 4% of men are murdered by female partners.
https://solidarity-us.org/atc/130/p729/
It seems to me that the only time
much of the black community
thinks trying to destroy the person
that is trying to destroy you
is a bad idea is when
a black woman or a black child
is on the receiving end of the initial attack.
For those of you that think this way, let me have my King David moment and say, "Screw you and the horse you rode in on."
Change your mind and your heart and grab-a-hold of any young black man you want to save -- before he is routinely beating, raping, or abusing a black woman. Failing that, the very freaking least that most black men can do is take their Pick-Me-s and support a protest that removes men like XXXTentacion and R. Kelly's music from Spotify.
If we can't change the minds of black male abusers of black women (all women) the least we can do is destroy their careers.
And I wish that was the road we as black people, male and female together, had chosen. If so, maybe that arrogant little b***** would have been humbled sooner, been removed from the public eye sooner, maybe not worth killing, and maybe still alive right now.
But that's not the way things played out.
In any case, just like white supremacy is on white people to cure, male supremacy is on men to cure and that goes double in the black community.
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To Black Christian Feminists who think what I've said is a bit much, I'll add this: Inside your own mind, treat XXXTentacion the same way you do George Zimmerman, Dante Servin, Darren Wilson, and Michael Brelo etc. For me this might mean, I try not to think of them at all BUT when I do, I pray that God will "get them" in due time in any way He sees fit.
BLACKCHICKROCKED.BLOGSPOT.COM
*- Black men in entertainment have a rather severe colorism problem. While some will not marry a white women they often look for someone as pale as possible to date/mate. I don't know if his girlfriend is the usual mixed-race-looking black woman or some other exotic-not-quite-white woman. And I don't care because it doesn't matter.
Misogynistic black men who beat and/or rape and/or murder women (of any color) have got to go because they are deadly to the black community as a whole.
Police brutality and brutality against women are purposely linked. By doing so, it is clear that Michel’le’s story isn’t unique but instead a cycle. When she, as a little girl, proclaims that no man will ever put his hands on her when she grows up, her grandmother, whom she calls Meme (played quite ably by Donna Biscoe), essentially tells her that black men hitting black women is just how things are. As lofty as it may seem, Surviving Compton aims to raise awareness of that cycle without ever sacrificing the core story...."
